Fergie - Clumsyseriously,work wasn't as bad as i was expected especially when i left the most essential thing in my life (although it died on me most of the time) on my bed.
it feels like shit when i realised i forgot my handphone.
this must be a sign.
a sign that my day will be,well,bad as i have always thought to myself.
i feel like crying because i can't whine to someone and have promised to dzul that we'll have lunch together but it was called off due to my absent-mindedness.
i cant even remember his number to inform him abt it!
look how perilous technology have done to me.
we depend on them too much without knowing that they are really harming us in fact,they have insulted our own memory.
i reached the office early although i walked slowly after alighting from the packed 'mcm tin sardin aku mcm nk pengsan' mrt.
it was funny to me.why,i'll just keep it to myself.
o_0
i can't believe i am going to the office,9-6 job,have my own table and experienced the hustle and bustle of the industrious location in raffles.
eiiiiiii.so the macam paham!
the other girls were friendly and seriously,they are there to help me all the time.
from the start,everyone in the company made me feel completely at ease.
alhamdullilah.
i just hope they dont find me irritating for bothering them most of the time.
i have been telling them how slow i can be and keep apologizing.
and the best thing,im the youngest in the company!
but nothing beats this.....,
my boss,which i have to attend to him all the time..
is one hot gorgeous,charming hindustani man!
*faints*
i cant stop grinning from an ear to another upon seeing him.
like him,i am excited as well!
apparently,we both are very excited to have one another.
:P
im lucky because he is nice,the others who have known him better said that too.
i hope i'll be a good secretary to him once i got everything on my fingertips.
heh.
(err.i hope that doesnt sounds wrong.)
everything was good.
i hope it'll be better and won't change my perceptions after being there for quite some time.
rezeki aku lah kan,alhamdullilah.
i received 22 missed calls and 11 sms-es when i immediately check my phone upon reaching home.
ibu was relieved to see me as she was worried to death how i've been doing since she cant get through me.awww.
few friends called and sms..and i remember i've promised shazzy to meet her.
*slaps forehead*
i am terribly upset with myself.
18 calls and 6 sms-es from dzulfikri adam.
he's pissed off because i've promised and refused to talk to me no matter how much i've sms-ed and called him.
i knew this was coming.
"eh dzhulpiki ah,lu tau gua dah pelupa pasal tu pon mau majok ka?lu manyiak susahh loh..wa tau gua kasi lu manyak susah dan lisau ni hali..lu masih tanak ckp dgn gua walopon wa dah call lebih dari lu call wa ni nye msg pon lebih dari lu msg gua..wa da menang lu pon masih tanak ckp ka?wa g call mama lu mintak tolong kalo lepas ni lu tak call wa juga!wa tak peduli.lu masih degil,wa sumpah muka lu yang manyiak hensem jadi kerepot.lu ting-ka-ting-tang-ting-tang-ting-nang-bo-ti-nang betol lah"
my 7th msg to him and he called laughing away on the phone few seconds after.
-.-"
badigol so'ot.
i love this bacen although im sick of him already.
it's true what ein says im just aint up for commitments just yet.
and this boy,he'll be furious when he knows about something that he supposed to know but didn't.
especially when it concerns his old friend.
it will be,soon.
i am ready for that and i'll make sure his friend will appear more vulnerable when it comes to my own words.
i seriously hate how the past keeps intertwined with my present.
sigh.sigh.sigh.
how i wish i got superpowers to freeze the time and erase my past.
after learning the mistakes i shouldnt have made,i will make sure that it never existed.
ahhh.how nice.
anyway,i miss most of my friends.
all of them.
drifting apart from good friends is nothing new anyway.
i care about it,but if the other party doesnt,it shouldnt have bother me that much.
but it does.
i wish im not a good friend.
so that i will feel less trepidation of losing the ones i love dearly and say "fuck this world and fuck friends!"
urgh.
