today marks the end of my performing up on that stage after five six years.
it's a heart-wrenching moment for me.
i put my heart and soul into it.
im among the first to step up on that stage.
the platform where i express myself.
the platform where people noticed me for doing what i love.

the burning passion.

on a positive note,i have carved my own name in this and people loves me for it.
alhamdullilah.
and i know.im still quite bad at this area.there's still a long way to go.

i shall not be selfish and it's time i take my leave.im satisfied with everything.

for the record to date (heh!),im proud of myself for going this far.
not that far but i've improved in this area.of course,im still learning.and will always learn more.whatever i have isnt enough at all.im still weak in some area.
it's time the young ones to take my position and let them strive hard.
but i want to see you all do better than that.
take everything as a challenge.
and they will know soon enough that performing is not an easy task.
it's easy to just go up on stage and do what you supposed to do.
but entertaining the people and satisfy their needs and put all your heart into it is a difficult job.
and it's also not easy to live in an industry where selfish,hypocrisy and cruelty meets.

i've abandoned my malay dance group in BBE MAEC for the lack of time i have.
and now,i've to stand down in school.
i was despondent about it that i cried after performing.
sayang sangat sangat.

all this while im committed to it and have done my best to be the best.
and next thing i know,it's all over.

it's just hard for me to let go of something that i've put my heart into.
ohwells.

i had such good time all this while.
i've learnt a lot as well.
im grateful with all the compliments i received.
it makes me wanna work hard even more to be better.
and not to forget with the criticisms.
it makes me stand on my feet and work harder to improve.
even to those who doesnt know much about malay culture,my non-malay friends especially, they appreciate me with what i love to do.
thank you.
thank you.
thank you.

and not to forget the teachers and my choreographer who trust me to shoulder the responsibility of being the chairman and the head of malay dance and for believing in me.

and i realised that my juniors also read my blog!
hey hello.
'kak wawa' gonna miss all of you and those who hates me can go party now that im no longer around.

and oh.some who tends to 'eavesdropped' when i said my thankyou-s to my dancers on that day says they love the way i talk to them and complimented that not only im a good dancer, also a kind-hearted girl.
to the choir girls,thank you. that's flattering. =D

i wish i am but i dun think im all that. :(

anyway,im going to say it all again with what i said earlier because whatever it was spontaneous and i was in a haste.so yea.and girls, if you are reading, put it in your head and spread the word around to the others...

"as you all know,im having an important year and i have to stand down,so that means it's my last time performing with all of you.
i wanna wish my heartiest thank you for working with me and co-operating.
thank you for all the good job.
i had a great time working with all of you and to the new ones who's been here only for few months,it was nice to see your respect and all.
my thousand apologies for all my wrongdoings.for all the scolding and mockery at times.im imperfect and i have times when i flare up for no big reasons.
im sorry for being fussy towards all of you.maaf sangat2 kalau ada sakitkan hati korang semua.
all those negative judgements dengan teguran tu semua untuk kebaikan kita semua.
because at the stage people look at us as a group not an individual.
now,we may be someone,but when you are in public,you are just no one until you show them what you got and from there they will judge the group as one.
so i hope you all can create good bond towards one another.
walau apa pun,terus mencuba.jangan pernah takut dengan kesilapan dan orang ramai.
jangan takut dengan teguran orang tapi belajar dengan kesilapan yang ada dan jangan malu bertanya.
bukan senang nak jadi anak seni dan bukan senang nak buat nama jadi anak seni.
sakit,perit,siksa,hasad dengki semua kita akan rasa when we are out there doing something that we love.
it's about passion.giving our heart and soul into it.
walau apa pun,kerja kuat untuk capai apa yang kita nak and never give up.
jangan tunduk bila dikeji dan jangan sombong bila dipuji.please remember this.
kalau kita dah capai tangga atas,jangan ingat kita ni bagus sangat.
sentiasa merendah diri..bila2 kita akan jatuh.
jangan hidung tinggi.

kita anak melayu.letak sempadan bila buat sesuatu.
this is all i have.im not good and im not acting good as well.i still have a long way to go.i admit im still not good in this,but hey,i fall and i learn again and again.


im just telling you what i think and my experiences.
it's not easy for me to go through everything to be who i am."
i just want to see all of us succeed.
i want to see you all be someone who you want to be and dont dissapoint yourself.
so be good and be nice.
sorry for everything and thank you for everything.

:)

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