we'll get there someday, somehow....

im picking myself up slowly.
and as days goes by,im able to rise up high again.
alhamdullilah.
no more looking back.and i know it will come back to me soon.
and i'm ready for that.
everyone feels heartache.
and everyone feels pain.who doesnt?
but only those who have courage.
can get up and try again no matter how hard they fall.

my friends are the one who makes me stand firmly on the ground again.
though i dont open up my heart and tell them what my problems actually are,they just know how to make me smile in every way possible.
each and everyone of them are by my side always and they always makes me feel good of myself.
and i even ask myself..
why should i be sad when i have everyone around by my side?
just because they dont know what my inner feelings are that doesnt mean they dont love me.
just that i'm the one who makes things go like that.
i'm the one who dont bother to speak up.
so who's fault is that?me.yes.
i look forward my day everyday with a positive mind.

it's a flaterring week.
and life's pretty good.
especially when everyone doesnt fail to make me smile even those i dont know well.
i thank god for everything.
korg semua rok!yeah!
:)

how great it is when u lost a thing,u get a whole lot back.
see?how can i not be spoilt?
im sooo manja that i get everything i want without asking.
juts be sad and pull a long face and ta-daaaa!
ahahahhaha.
so much of being the only child and the good friend.
err.am i?ahakz.
oh well.i think this must be fate's way of pacifying me and distracting me from the heartache at hand.
blessing in disguise maybe?

and im behaving so loud that i think even my skoolmates who doesnt know me well will get irritated.
and i even shouted at them like how i did during one of my malay class.
damnnnnn.people gonna hate me for that.
hurhur.

okay.too much talking.
oh yah.im back to my training.
abg. lan needs me cuz there's a lot of upcoming shows for national day.
so yeahhh.
this means lots and lots of dinners.
woofuckinghoooo.

okay bye!

8/4/06 - 12.30pm