i have no idea about what is happening and do not even want to find out and know.
i am in a dazed and my moods swings are external stimulated from laughing violently to weeping hysterically.
how terrible can that be?
i lost and hurt.
not only myself.
but others too.
i dont know how to face the rest.
and this is the time when i really need to be wise and be patient.
life has been turning its back on me.
my mind is in a fucking whirl.
oh fuck.