We've seen each other for three days straight. Now I'm worried.
How is this going to end? And do I really want this to go somewhere?

I think ....

I HAVE ISSUES.

Daniel said I always like some guy but then I don't ... I like the first few days of knowing someone and then I get bored.

I don't think commitment is for me. Maybe I did once upon a time when I was young and stupid. Now that I'm older and less stupid, I'm such a sceptic.

The guy that I'll hang on to is someone that I shouldn't be with.
They are either in a relationship or have to be out of Singapore for some reason.
Men suck. I hate them so much that I want to cut their balls and feed them to dogs.

Ah. HEAVEN.
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These past weeks have rocketed by at a speed that seemed so alien to me. So much so that I felt like I hadn't been doing anything meaningful, save for school wherein I had to do assignments than I would care to recall, until I took a breather and listed out what I had been doing. And then I marvel at the extent of which I'd accomplished since.

That's to say the least. I've been somewhat busy, somewhat occupied. But if you ask me, what am I so busy with? I really can't give a proper explanation. Some days are so heady and whirlwind-like; the adrenaline pumping and coursing through my veins inadvertently spill over even on the quieter times that I have to myself.

I feel socially disoriented at the moment. Being oblivious makes me less involved with drama and hypocrites, to say the least but it makes me lost. I can’t even make a distinction between real friends or two-faced bitches. Oh god. I need my girlfriends to keep me sane. But before that, I need time.

My dazed thoughts are entwined with his mind-blowing voice and there's this silent comfort wrapping my heart in a cozy embrace.
There's something about the sparkling glint in his eye which brightens up my day.
There's just something about the airy, light breeze of euphoria that's practically bursting out of his perky laugh.

Since I am spending most of my time with him now, we'll see where this leads to.

So, if you've noticed, I have not updated since ages ago but i just have not been able to muster the mood to write.

I'm not sure how I feel about 2008. I had my break-up and a terrible accident.
I'm not one for resolutions, really, but let's just hope it'll be a year with less whining and complaints, less materialism. I shan't say anything about my procrastination tendencies because that can't clearly be helped. I'm hoping for something big in 2009. I could really use a change. I'm starting to get tired of all this.

The year 2008 opened my eyes to many things. I may not like every person that I know, but I do like observing people and that I think is what helped me see things I did not see before. 2008 was the toughest years to get through.
I want to say something insightful about 2008, but frankly I am lost for words.

It is a little daunting, but how else will I learn, right?

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